1.17.2019

At the start of each new year, I sit down and write a list of things I want to accomplish, bad habits I'd like to break, areas I wish to improve. I imagine a utopian version of my life. "If I change ____, then I'll be happy!"

 I've said this a hundred times and it's worth repeating - I love the feeling each January of having a seemingly blank slate with the hope of making "this year the best year of my life!" There's always a small part of me that doesn't really believe that, but I'm always extremely hopeful. The possibility of something truly amazing happening fills me with excitement.

Now that we are well into 2019 and I've read countless blog posts (all of them excellent by the way) about others' hopes and dreams for the year, I've come to the conclusion that I don't have much to resolve this time around. Usually I'm in such a rush to put plans into motion - not this time. This time, I really just want to focus on allowing myself grace.


Grace to go at my own pace, grace to be my imperfect self, grace to try again after I make mistakes. If 2018 was my year of inconsistency, 2019 will be my year of being kinder to myself.

I'm a Virgo, so by definition I'm my own worst enemy. I'm forever waiting for something to go wrong, as if worrying enough will somehow prevent it.

This year, I want to just be. I suppose that's a cop-out but it's all I want.


As for the blog, I'd really like to focus on two things: Writing more extensively about different subjects that interest me, and connecting more with you guys. I'll admit that part of the reason I don't blog quite as often is because I'm not always in the mood. I want my posts to have value, but the pressure I put on myself has been stifling. The last year has made me second guess every sentence I write, every photo I take. With so many great blogs out there, sometimes I just feel like I'm not adding anything. But is that really true? I started this blog ten years ago! Of course I've changed, as I hope many of you have as well. I'd like to explore those changes without fear.


If there's anything you would like to see more or less of, please don't hesitate to reach out! Have you made any plans for the year, or are you taking it slow as well?

5 comments:

  1. I am a Virgo too, in every sense of the word and completely understand when you say we are our own worst enemy! Good luck with all you want to focus on this year!

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    1. Thank you Laura, I hope the same for you this year :)

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  2. I am with you on just allowing yourself grace this year and not putting on any extra pressure. I have enough on my plate at the moment so if I can just get through with a reasonably positive outlook I'm content! I also hear you on the blogging pressure. I try to block it out and not worry if my content is not as professional as "everyone else's" these days. I know it's not everyone but it often feels that way! It's a constant mental struggle though! You DO have something unique to contribute and I hope you'll find a desire and a way to comfortably share that here! Can't wait to see you tomorrow!

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  3. I'm pretty sure if I embodied all the traits of my astrological sign I'd be a much happier person. I never get too wrapped up in the idea of January being a fresh start with a potential for a better year. If I can find it within myself to make positive changes in my life, the date matters very little. I don't know what I want for my blog. I miss when we all felt connected, and not just like we are being sold to.
    Chic on the Cheap

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    1. Yes, I couldn't agree more with your sentiments regarding the blogging community. I just feel like it's never going to go back to how it used to be. It's unfortunate.

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