1.10.2018


I currently have a pimple on my forehead. I also have a couple fine lines right next to it.

Pimples and wrinkles? Welcome to thirty-three.





And so it goes, just another typical week around here. Stuck between puberty and adulthood, or so it appears that way. It was only a few short months ago that I had my skincare routine down to a science. Then I stopped taking birth control pills over the Summer and now I'm just trying to understand my own body again.

Ch-ch-ch-changes...

I'll admit that I've been reluctant to write about this, mostly because it's a little embarrassing. But if I'm experiencing these changes then I'm sure a lot of you are (or have) as well.

I started taking the pill when I was eighteen. I had horrible menstrual cycles that were extremely painful, making the week of my period absolute Hell. My skin was fairly normal but when I broke out, I really broke out! We're talking red, cystic bumps. When my doctor recommended I try a low dose birth control pill to help regulate my hormones, I gladly accepted. All the nerves I had about taking a pill every single day quickly faded away as my skin, hair, nails, everything seemed to improve.

I never had issues on ortho tri cyclen lo. I didn't have the same hiccups that plagued my girlfriends. Many of them tried different methods because the side effects of birth control really impacted their bodies in a negative way. It was confusing to me because I didn't have any complaints. It worked well! My cycle became regular, my skin looked amazing, my hair shined, and I lived my life without worry. I felt in control of my body.

Then in June, Nate and I decided that we were ready to start a family and I stopped taking all of my medications including the pill. I was SO nervous. After over a decade of relying on it, I was done. Just like that. I poured over online articles, medical journals, consulted with a doctor, and asked my girlfriends if stopping birth control was easy. Namely, was my body going to freak out? Spontaneously combust?

Before I go on, let me caution you guys against reading too much into somebody else's experience. I read horror stories of women suddenly getting horrible acne, mood swings that bordered on institutionalization, and oily hair that couldn't be tamed. The last part scared me the most. "Damn, I'll have to wash my hair every day?" No thanks. I have enough trouble as it is.

The truth is, everybody is going to react differently when starting or stopping any type of hormonal treatment, just as everybody reacts differently to  certain medications. So before you have a meltdown like I did in June, just relax. Your body may change like mine has, or you may not notice any changes at all.

So right now, a little over six months after stopping the pill and I have:
An oily complexion. The rest of my body is dry as a desert (I suffer from mild eczema and dry patches).
I have intermittent periods where my skin still looks and feels like it did before, but I break out more often especially little bumps along my hairline and jawline. I cannot express how irritating this is to me.
My hair gets oily faster, especially in the front. I now wash my hair three times per week, in comparison to twice before.
My period is regular and actually fairly easy. Not too much pain either, thank God.
The one thing that has really been a struggle is my mood. I go up and down so much and quickly too. I'm still unsure what to do in order to create balance, but I'm hoping that my body will regulate  itself. 

The products shown above are what I've been using. I find that I still enjoy most of them, but I have a less heavy hand with the creams. I also have been exfoliating more, about three times per week. I am super diligent about cleansing too. The L'oreal pure clay cleanser has been amazing at removing impurities, so I plan on buying another soon.

This post isn't necessarily me giving you advice because I'm sorting through it all myself. I just wanted to share that if you're going through hormonal changes too, that I totally understand how frustrating it can be! I would love to hear from you guys on this topic! Any tips, special products that I should know about? Our bodies are resilient, and we will adjust.



1.08.2018






Beauty // Lips in Clinique Black Honey



I got this check mini dress right after Christmas, and this outfit is head-to-toe what I wore on new years eve. Yes, I skipped the usual glitz and shine and just decided to go with something understated for my friend's party. I'm really loving the plaid trend. Asos has quite a few options, but this dress caught my eye in the petite department. Great for layering and extremely versatile depending on the season. I think it'll look nice in the Spring with a long cardigan and kitten heels. If you are currently in the midst of snow (hello bomb cyclone) pairing a dress like this with thick tights and a coat would be polished enough for work.

Speaking of which, I hope my friends on the east coast and beyond are staying safe and warm! I can count on one hand how many times I've even seen snow. Ridiculous but true!

Linking up with: More Pieces of Me & Pink Sole

1.03.2018


First off, happy new year everyone! I hope you guys had a great ending to the year and are ready to start fresh. As I've always said, I love the feeling of a clean slate every January and this time is no different. Every day holds the possibility of something extraordinary, so try and make the most of it!




               Wearing // BLANK NYC jacket, Free People bralette, similar camisole, Express jeans,                          similar pumps, Sezane bag
                M.A.C. lips in Ravishing



I wore this during the festivities and really enjoyed the new moto jacket I got during Nordstrom's anniversary sale. I could finally put it to use! It's a bit heavy for California weather, but it gets really chilly at night so it's perfect as a topper to any outfit. And the color! Such a rich caramel shade that brings out the warmth in my features. It's definitely one of my favorite purchases from last year (how weird is it to say that by the way?!)

I don't typically do resolutions, at least not in the formal sense. I think it's a nice sentiment but it also sets people up for failure. Small changes and tweaks as well as setting long-term goals is the most effective way to go about a new year. I like to write mine down so that I can actually visualize what I want to accomplish. Some people also create mood boards and I think I might do that alongside a written list. Here are the areas I want to focus on for 2018:

1) Health: Put my health and wellbeing at the top of my priority list.

2) Relationships: Continue to foster the relationships in my life that are valuable and important to me.

3) Education: I start school again next week, and I want to throw myself into learning all that I can.

4) Finances: Spend less on things, more on memories.

5) Positive Thinking: This will always be SO difficult for me, but worth the constant reminder.

And for the blog:

1) Improved photography: I got a new lens, can you tell the difference? I absolutely can by these pictures!

2) A Set Schedule: Monday-Wednesday seems to be the best option for me but I know blogging three days a week is ideal. I personally don't tend to read blogs on Fridays for some reason, but maybe that's just me.

I'm going to continue plugging along, and I'm really excited to see where the year takes all of us! Dwelling on past mistakes and negative thinking keeps us stagnant but moving forward, even baby steps, is the key to happiness and success. I plan on going more in depth about these goals in the coming weeks so I hope you'll follow along with me. 💋

What are some of your goals/intentions for the new year?

12.28.2017


I wasn't going to do a recap of 2017, mainly because I'm super anxious to get started on my goals for 2018. In all honesty, this year was difficult. I battled a lot of personal struggles. But like every year, there were pros and cons...

Pros:
I traveled to Colorado and Ohio.
I went camping and hiking through Zion, the Grand Canyon, Big Sur, and several beaches.
I reconnected with some friends and family.
I continued to record my style, even when I didn't feel very good about myself.

Cons:
Depression, anxiety, self-doubt, laziness.

There were times when I didn't feel the motivation to blog, but I tried my hardest to anyway. I really truly appreciate all of your love, support, and feedback. I wouldn't be able to do this without you and I hope you will continue to stick with me for another (more positive and exciting) year!

Instead of recapping every outfit I wore, I figure I can show you the highlights. Pieces that are my absolute favorites to wear, and that I would buy all over again or would recommend to you.

Little black dress

Polka dots & Millenial pink pumps

Wrap coat

Lace

Distressed jeans

Girly day dress

Classic bag



Now for my favorite posts of the year! Click on each one if you care to go back and read.







Girls Trip to Hollywood



My Experience with Botox

Birthday Weekend in Big Sur

Zion & the Grand Canyon



And my most discussed blog topic of the year, Real Talk: Coming off Meds. That one was terrifying to write, but also extremely cathartic.

Now, let me ask you this. What would you like to see more or less of on this blog next year? I blog for selfish reasons, but I naturally care what you think! You are my friends and I need your input.

Please let me know in the comments or send me a message! Have a wonderful, safe new year's and I will see you on the flip side next week :)

12.18.2017


Style blogging is a weird thing. I often find myself wondering if reading here and showing you what I like to wear is really all that helpful to anyone. I mean I'm no expert, and there are plenty of ways now to learn about cultivating your own personal style. The internet, books, social media...finding useful advice and inspiration should be easier than ever.

But what if you don't feel represented? What if you're not quite finding what your'e looking for? It used to be that bloggers showed off clothing in a way that a glossy editorial couldn't (or wouldn't). Everyday women like myself could buy a camera, set up a website, and give a middle finger to magazines, models, and the unattainable fashion industry. It was exciting. It was real. And as a consumer of blogs, I felt compelled to add my own voice to the mix.


I get that we are in a new age of body positivity, and it's definitely a step in the right direction. I'm always pleasantly surprised when I see an ad campaign featuring a blogger that isn't cookie cutter, that has interesting features, or that wears things in a way that I hadn't thought of. But I want more. I get tired of the same bloggers being featured on LiketoKnowit.

I want:

More diversity, not only in size but also in ethnicity. Women of color.

Not just thinness, or plus size women, but also average sized women.

Women of all ages.

Less photoshopping.

Less c/o clothing. Would you really buy that with your own money?

Different aesthetics.

I'm really hoping that style blogging goes back to being more raw and unedited. I hope we see more diversity, in all shapes and forms. In fact, if you're reading this and have wanted to start blogging but have hesitated because of fear, insecurity, or being different - You should start a blog.

 I guess it's all up to us, and that's the beauty of it. We can change the landscape a bit if we want to.

What do you want to see more or less of in style blogging?

12.11.2017





Wearing //
Express coat (sold out), love this



Everyone loves leggings, right? You can lounge around the house in them, sleep in them, and even run errands in leggings. But for me, all leggings are not created equal. I like mine to be ultra thick and opaque, so a ponte knit is essential. I also prefer that they give the appearance of denim, which means illusion pockets on the back are a plus. Here I wore a longer top and coat, though a longline cardigan or tunic would have been pretty as well. I don't have to worry about feeling exposed, and I'm pretty darn warm! I wore this to dinner where we sat on a covered patio and it was the perfect mix of chic and comfort. You definitely don't have to sacrifice either when it comes to leggings. Business on top, party on the bottom! 

Would you wear leggings in this way? How do you prefer to wear yours?